As you very
well know, I have had couple of close calls, accidental ruined orgasms and sort
of semi-orgasms, during my 600 or so days of chastity. They have happened
without my control while I have been edging with me being nowhere near the
edge.
Well, like
I've told you, we have summer over here, albeit a little cold one, but it has
caused nice erotic sensation in me. I wouldn't say I'm not horny and frustrated
all the time, and in fact I hope I would be more so, but it has revived my
libido in some degree.
Yesterday I
was edging the way I normally do, browsing some erotic images, thinking about
my situation and my Queen, and naturally pulling my very limp penis. Like I've
told you, it doesn't get hard, even when I egde.
Then, quite
suddenly, when I was having my cool off break between spurts, and without even
being even that aroused, I felt... it starting to happen again. Quite out of
the blue I felt the orgasmic build up approaching, with me unable to do
anything to stop it.
I was
naturally petrified with fear. I merely waited, without daring even to breathe,
and examined the sensation. I was convinced accidental ejaculation would take
place again, since this is the way it had happened the two previous times.
But then,
it... stopped. After a build-up, and such sense of approaching ejaculation I
could taste it. I was naturally very relieved, but it also made me quote
nervous, even alarmed, to have been so close letting sperm spill out, once
again.
I stopped
masturbating immediately and directed my energy to other matters. However, all
during the day I was strangely... tense, like being in overdrive. What had
happened intrigued me so much that I decided to experiment and started to edge
again after a few hours.
And, as
amazing as it sounds, the same thing happened again. Or rather, almost
happened, while I was pulling my limp dick. I knew now I had to be cautious,
and managed to stop myself well in advance. But the orgasmic build-up was
there, I could feel it.
I must say
I was baffled. After all this time, after 600 days of cum ban, after a month
and a half since my last spill, that took place in the presence of my Queen,
what has caused my long-dead libido to be awaken this way?
And as if
this wasn't strange enough, a few hours later, when I was in bed and almost
falling asleep, and my thoughts wandered to what happened during the day and to
the idea of me cumming, I swear, I felt it starting again. This time with no
physical simulation whatsoever.
I naturally
panicked, and managed to stop the approaching sensation. In a way it's a pity,
though. It would have been interesting experiment. To know whether I could sum
in my pants, with my dick completely limp, simply by thinking about it.
Even now,
as I write this, and think of myself cumming, I feel the sort of... boiling
sensation in my balls. Various erotic imagery has also much stronger effect on
me now, and I get very unexpected flashes of horniness, and a tight, gripping
sensation in my testicles.
In a way
this is as intense experience that the sensations during my first, week long
cum ban way back in 2012. By the time week was almost up, a mere picture of a
woman's face on the cover of a fashion magazine could produce the similar
effect.
However, I
can't help but wondering, what the heck is happening in my balls? I'm baffled
to say the least. Did the first, near-orgasm yesterday have this effect on me?
An effect even more stronger that after the last actual ruined orgasm?
