Thursday, June 25, 2015


The two-day long 600th day anniversary celebration with my Queen is now successfully completed. Giving a fully detailed description would take way too much space, and I'm still surprised all the things we managed to do. It was quite a couple of days.

Among other things the activities included: 1) a session during which I got to make my Queen cum four times in a row (our record so far), 2) having drinks at my favorite pub to celebrate the occasion (we were supposed to go to a fancy restaurant to do it in, but we couldn't find anything open at that hour), 3) having a nice and relaxing sauna together (a Finnish thing, but it was something we hadn't done together before), 4) a little bit of CFNM (something I've fantasized about for a long time), 5) me unpacking and trying out my male lace panties I've had a long time, and showing off my bum for her in them (according to her they make it look quite yummy even when I'm waring slacks), 6) my Queen trying some makeup on me (she likes to make me "look pretty", apparently), 7) some really nice edging in front of my Queen with her teasing me verbally, 8) a nice, romantic "sunday walk" with my Queen while wearing the panties (which, like I suspected, slid straight to my bum crack, making the walk delightfully uncomfortable), 9) a really wicked session during which my Queen rode on top of me and tortured my full bladder at the same time, with my vibrator lodged between us (you wouldn't believe the moaning we made) and finally even 10) my Queen letting me eat her out for the first time ever (according to her the experience wasn't unpleasant).

One thing I'm very happy about as well, is the fact that my Queen didn't made me cum after all, but instead decided to continue the ban a little bit further. 

Saturday, June 20, 2015


What a day. Like you most likely already read, my Queen and I ended up doing some good old-fashioned on-line bladder torture on yours truly.

The whole thing was more or less an accident, but ended up as an hour and a half long torture session. Actually I don't remember when was the last time my bladder had been that full, and in so much pain. The home stretch, so to speak, was the condition that my Queen wanted to finish a fantasy book she was reading before I could get relief.

The last forty-five minutes or so I was in complete agony, while my Queen was relaxing with her book. (She said the ending contained so much plot twists she had to go back and forth a bit.) The whole thing was very perverse, but we both loved every minute. After my Queen finally finished her book and I got to pee, it felt ecstatic, almost like cumming.

What I hadn't anticipated, though, was the fact that even though I finally peed over two liters of liquid in the course of few hours, and there was nothing inside anymore, the bladder is now very sore, creating a very strong urge to urinate. Then again, it's understandable, after the harsh treatment it got today.

However, in my point, the urge to pee, or a pain in my bladder, has always resulted into a heightened sense of horniness, as well. In other words, after my Queen went off-line to go to meet a friend of hers, I haven't been able to stop edging. As long as the ache doesn't subside, I don't seem to be able to stop this.

This is all fine and well, but over nine hours of edging, with only brief breaks, is quite a lot even for me.

Then again, this is the day after the midsummer eve celebrations over here, and people are supposed to spend it hung over or relaxing. It's nobody's business how I spend mine, right?


My Queen is reading "The Assassin's Apprentice" same time she is applying bladder torture to me online. Only thirty pages left, she says. No peeing until the book is finished, and my bladder is on fire. Have I already mentioned I think I'm the luckiest guy in the world?

Wednesday, June 17, 2015


My Queen made an unplanned stay-over visit at my place the other night. The visit was very romantic, erotic, hot and fun, in quite an perverse way.

Among other things she agreed to masturbate herself in front of me, something no woman hasn't ever done for me. I was surprised how... utterly beautiful it looked like, and I simply had to masturbate a bit as well, as I watched her. She seemed to find it rather amusing.

Naturally I didn't dare to do it very long, since I don't trust my nether regions at all anymore. Afterwards I sort of got excited and started planning things how mutual masturbation could work for both of us. Naturally for this to work it would mean we had ended the current cum ban, and started a series of shorter ones, lasting perhaps only few months or weeks.

My first idea was that I would have possibility to wank off and cum as long as long as my Queen hadn't orgasmed yet, as many times as I manage. This way my Queen would have more motivation to cum as soon as possibile, to prevent me getting too much enjoyment. And if she managed to cum just before my third of fourth ejaculation, too bad for me.

However, since I noticed orgasming in my presence took quite a while for her (usually, she says, she can orgasm in less than ten minutes) and I could have spurted my load in less than minute watching her, the procedure I described earlier seemed a bit unfair.

Therefore I came up with an idea that she could be given a head start, say five minutes, after which I would be allowed to start wanking off. If she manages to orgasm before I do, I'd had to stop, not matter whether I had orgasmed myself or not.

Naturally I'd have to spend the head start time by helping her to orgasm by caressing her and kissing her, as well as admiring her beauty, knowing that every second passing lessens my own possibility to get to cum. One can only imagine my confusion at that point.

Over time the head start could be increased, and hopefully she will come better at orgasming at my presence as well, making it less and less probable I get to cum. This could be done once a month, for example, and that would be my only chance to try to orgasm.

I described plans to my Queen, and she didn't declined, something I'm very pleased about. However, it is unknown when we will have to try the plans I described, at this point at least.

Tuesday, June 9, 2015


Okay. I think it's official. The warm weather, sunshine and arrival of summer do have a strong connection with me being horny. The past few weeks or so my libido has been more or less dead. At the same time we've had the chilliest spring in Finland in a long while. Now we're experiencing the first warm summer days, in some degree at least, and all I think now is masturbating and cumming.