I… have a
girlfriend.
Yes, I
know. It seems ridiculous. A male with my history, and total lack of means of
keeping a woman happy, and sexually satisfied? I have trouble understanding it
either. Truth to tell I had already lost the hope of ever finding a woman in my
life ever again, someone I could share my life, and myself with.
But yet, it
happened. This stunning, beautiful, funny and smart young woman walks into my
life and seems for some reason to be interested in me. And for the first time
in my life I have the guts doing something about it. Despite knowing I couldn’t
ever be enough for her.
It has been
happening gradually over the last few months. I have told her, bit by bit, all
about me, and my fetishes, and she has turned out to be very open-minded about
everything, despite having almost as limited history of actually practicing
sex, than I have.
A little
over week ago I finally took the last step and told her about my cum ban. On
the 500th day of my chastity, as it happened. It was one of the toughest things
I have ever done in my life. My heart raced and I was in the verge of having a
panic attack.
And you
know what? She was totally cool about it. She seemed even to be a little
amused, saying she didn’t understand how come telling me this was such a big
deal?
At that
moment it felt a ton weigh had been lifted from my chest. Prior to that I had
felt as if I had cheated on her, by not telling about my cum ban. And I was
mortified, thinking how she might react, and how it would affect our relationship.
I’ve been
delirious the past week and a half. I’ve told her over and over again I have
the coolest girlfriend in the universe, and she has continued to be amused,
even puzzled, watching me react this way. If I like something, and don’t harm
anyone else, where’s the harm?
I loved her
even before, but after our discussion my love for her became tenfold. At the
moment she’s the sexiest woman in the whole world for me. And as incredible as
it is, she seems to be crazy about me, as much as I’m crazy about her. Despite
all my shortcomings.
I know
you’re all thinking the same things I’ve had. What about his cum ban? Is it all
over now? Will they start fucking now? I thought the sorry excuse of a man
wasn’t able to get it up? Is she dominant? Is she his girlfriend now, or a
Mistress?
These are
all valid questions, and something I have had gone over and over in my head,
questions we have talked about as well. There’s a million and one things to
solved.
Like I said
earlier, she’s very open-minded and loves me very much, which itself carries
you a long way. Neither has she demanded I end my cum ban instantly, and start
cumming, of fucking her like a normal man.
Quite the
contrary, she seems to be interested becoming the one supervising my project
from now on, a responsibility I have been offering to her quite eagerly. I
don’t mind if she orders me to cum tomorrow, because I would do it under her
control. My orgasms belong to her now.
I have
finally made it, is seems. There’s finally something in my life I have longed,
for so long. A woman I love, and who loves me enough to overlook my
shortcomings. I cannot believe how fortunate I am.
From this
day on my chastity, body and soul belongs to my Queen.
