I have in
other words tried to tease and edge myself regularly, despite the apparent
danger. Saturday was way too busy day for my Queen and me, containing a
strenuous, day-long road trip. There was one sexually interesting situation
during the day but I won't go into here.
On Friday
and today on Sunday I did, however, have time to experiment and it looks like
the state of easy arousal remains. I conducted an experimental edging several
times, one even on Saturday after the trip, and noticed I reach "the
edge" much quicker than previously.
Today's
experiment session was so far the most interesting. After a relatively short
masturbation time, and pushing myself closer to the edge with short
masturbatory spurts I felt once again the orgasmic build-up.
This time,
however, I realized it wouldn't stop before actual physical release like it did
on previous occasion and I knew if didn't do anything I would have an actual
accidental orgasm on my hands, a one that would happen totally without the
presence of my Queen.
Therefore I
decided to simply squeeze the head of my limp penis shut, as tight as I could,
and see what happens. I felt the orgasmic flashes, but since I didn't release
my grip on my penis the amount of sperm that apparently tried to get put of the
urethra never did so.
When I
think of the whole thing afterwards I am a bit surprised how cold, rational and
almost methodological the whole thing was. I merely looked at my penis I was
shutting tight and I never "lost it", so to speak.
I know I
should feel guilty. However, the recent period of heightened arousal has been
so interesting it would have been a pity not to examine or take advantage of
it. I admit one could claim this wasn't a "close call" anymore, but
an actual ruined orgasm.
However,
considering how erratic the functions of my body have been I think it would
have been illogical to assume I could produce again similar semi-orgasm I did
on Wednesday. Like making a jump over a ravine with a race car, and managing to
land on the ground, and then making the jump again, expecting to land on the
same exact spot.
Naturally I
am now very intrigued as what kind of effect this will have on me. One could
say that as far as the body is concerned, I have had now something it regards
as an orgasm. Does this decrease my level of horniness or not, or perhaps
heightens it?
