30.11.2016

Welcome to "My Boy Pussy Project", part two. Today I've been playing with my third anal toy. It's similar with the fluffy tail plug, with the exception that in the place of a red fluffy part there is a red "diamond", sort of a red brake light.

I bought both earlier this year when we were experimenting with the girlfriend, but the first experiences with the toys weren't only positive. Both toys seemed so small, even though they required a lots of lube in order for me to get them in. I was afraid they would slip inside my anus all the way, resulting to a trip to ER.

So, I was a bit hesitant to use the red diamond one, but since the red fluffy plug was still wet (I washed it, big mistake there) and since I desperately needed something inside me I decided to risk it.

This time I didn't use lube of any kind, just bent over and started to guide the plug to my anus. This is the part I find to be the most humiliating one. After I had found the right place I started simply to push it in dry. I took some time, but finally I had gotten it in as deep as I thought it would go.

However, it was much easier than I thought it would be, or than it had been the day before. I can only hope my training yesterday had something to with it. Also, the whole procedure of bending down and starting to shove something inside your asshole seemed much more normal now.

When I stood up and felt my naked backside I could feel the red diamond part sticking out between my ass cheeks. It seems my asshole was so dry it was keeping the plug firmly in it place, with no fear of it going in or out.

This was good news indeed, since I knew now I could risk what I wanted to do, namely to sit down, and this way to make the plug go even deeper into my ass. Also, sitting down with the feeling of a steel plug in my ass was humiliating beyond belief.

As I am writing this the plug is firmly in my anus. At first it seemed "fucking myself" wouldn't be possible in the similar way with this toy, since there isn't similar "ball" part at the end of it.

However, the longer I sit here and rock myself back and forth while I edge myself, the more "life" and movement there seems to be between my ass cheeks. It seems my muscles are trying to thrust it out, but my weight prevents this. By gyrating my hips in round motions I can feel something wonderful happening inside me. It seems enjoying things inside your asshole is an acquired taste.

By making a slight "hopping" movement, in other words moving my hip and down using my leg muscles I have even managed to create a bit of the thing we've used of seeing in porn movies, in which the actress is riding a hard cock. Or, if I keep the two fingers around my my soft clit motionless, and hump my hip back and forth in sort of slow strokes I can fuck my hand and myself in the ass at the same time.

Also, I noticed that if I first stretch each buttock and then let my weight descend, the mixture of sensations is overwhelming, almost violent: the feeling of my stretched out asshole, the sensations the plug creates inside my dry anus, the constant fight my body and mind have against each other, whether to get the nasty hard thing out, or further in.

When I first tried this, after sitting on the plug almost an hour, a long, almost orgastic wail escaped my lips: "Aaaaaahhhhh!". It's impossible to know how much of it was pain, how much was pleasure. I had never felt anything like it. After an half an hour or so I also noticed this technique makes the plug go much deeper inside my dry ass, than it so far had.  

The thing is, before I tried that technique I suspect the plug was inside my anus only half-way. This is not only a bad thing either, of course, since this way the widest part was most likely at the "mouth", hopefully widening it.

Now the only problem that remains is that I this is way too much fun. I love the feeling the plug creates and I don't want to take it out anymore.

I would have so much I'd have to do today, but as long as the plug is inside me it's quite impossible for me to think of anything else than rocking myself back and forth in my chair, and edging...

29.11.2016

This blog post begins a series in my blog that can be seen as somewhat of a change direction for it. For some time now things have been rather quiet in the life of this chaste boy when it comes to sexuality. However, lately I have begun to wake my libido from its slumber again.

I have among other things started edging on my own. As the faithful readers of my blog may remember, that has been off limits for me since way back in August 2015, when we decided with my girlfriend it would be a good idea to take it away from me. After all, her pussy should be the center of my sexuality.

For a good part of this year we had a project of denying orgasms from me for the whole of 2016, making it a completely cum free year for me. Also, I have been very anxious to get my previous record of 497 days of chastity broken, which would mean I have a chance to cum sometime in next April, which is still over four months away.

In other words, for a year and a half, over sixteen months I didn't have permission to touch my myself in a improper manner. No cumming, no masturbating, no edging, no touching, nothing. At some point I realized this has become a second nature for me. The mere thought of taking my limp little penis in my hand and start moving it back and forth had become unnatural for me.

Even after my girlfriend informed me some time ago I am now free to do with my project anything I see fit, I discovered I am unable to do so. For several months now I would have had a permission to masturbate and edge as much as I like, but I have been unable and unwilling to do so. Not getting pleasure was what I am.

So it has taken me a conscious trying to get over it, and during the past few weeks I have "taught" myself edging again. Making my brain understand it is not wrong or forbidden for me to take my limp penis in my hand and start edging. Nowadays I try to do it daily.

I have also gone through a great deal soul searching as to what I really am. This would be in itself way too big subject to go through here, but this soul searching led me to the idea it might be interesting if I started anal training.

I've played with my anus a few times during my life but I've never gotten the hang of it. Also, you may remember we did try it a bit with my girlfriend, as well. I decided to start it on my own now, since I realized it's the best way to get more action into my sex life.

In other words, welcome to my anal training diaries, or how I like to call them as well, "My Boy Pussy Project", part one.

I started my training today with a steel butt plug I own that has a tiny red fluffy tail at the end. It's very small, but I've noticed that since I basically have a virgin ass, getting merely an index finger in is quite enough for me. In fact it took some doing getting the tiny steel thing in,

I also own a cock shaped vibrator I bought for my girlfriend, but not only was it too big for her, it's way, way too big for my boy pussy. But perhaps someday it will be ready to take that monster in. In other words, the small fluffy ended plug fills my ass quite nicely now.

My first step was getting used to the feeling of having something in there, as well as getting rid of the need to get it out immediately. I put it in while I was in the shower and it has remained so a few hours now, as I have done stuff around the house, and edged myself, of course.

I think it will take some time to be completely okay with the feeling, but it's happening bit by bit, think. I have managed to get some enjoyment as well, by twisting and turning it around. I even tried the vibrator on it, but it had no huge effect.

I noticed I can even sit down at my computer quite normally with the thing inside me, which was a great news for me. If I rock myself back and forth I can "fuck" myself in the ass quite safely, without the danger of the end slipping inside of me. My plan is to be so used of having something up my ass that I start feeling something is missing, if it's all empty.

Next I will experiment by running errands and going to the grocery store with the plug in, and with the chastity cage on as well. That should make myself feel quite full as well as secure, don't you think?   

26.11.2016

Recently there was question in a Facebook BDSM group asking how many members are into self-torture and if so, what kind. I replied and mentioned that bladder torture was one of my favorites. A fellow member got interested and asked how do I do it, and what do I use? Being the polite person I am, I gave him a detailed reply. In order for the reply not to gets lost, I decided to post it here, as well.

What do I use? Well, simply put, water. Pints and pints of it, slowly descending in my belly while I masturbate myself at the same time. The more discomforting it gets, the more horny I become, and the more horny become, the more water I drink to be hurt more.

Sometimes I've done it all alone, with a pint after pint of ice water next to me, occasionally pressing my lower abdomen and feeling it getting more and more full and hard. The feeling it creates is different from any kind of pain, since it engulfs my whole groin area, as well as radiates outwards from there. Masturbation feels so much better that way.

Naturally it's even better when there's a sadistic woman present on chat for example, deciding how much and when I have drink the water, and deciding when I can go to relieve myself, or whether I can cum or not. In a way it's most fun when the woman in question is a bit unsure what to do, and ends up giving orders that are very hard for you to carry out!

Once or twice I've had the pleasure of a woman actually being present during this sort of water session. It feels so great being able to empty a whole pint of ice water in one go in front her eyes, as she watches you in disbelief...

My favourite part is naturally when she sits on top of me in a cowgirl position, preferably with me having to beg for her for it first. It's amazing what woman can do just by shifting her weight back and forth in a situation like that. It also helps if the woman in question has, as they say, meat on her bones.

The girlfriend I had the pleasure doing this with a couple of times was a big girl, and I simply loved to feel her getting on top of me with her full weight, and then starting to grind my full bladder. When this took place I just lay back, smiled, held my hands on her wide hips and told how much I loved her.

Afterwards, either after I have ejaculated or merely edged myself so long I can't stand it anymore, or I have been given a permission to, I start letting the pee out. It usually takes several hours, as the water in abdomen enters the bladder filling it again and again.

If I have cummed, the feeling immediately afterwards is simply awful, because at that point nothing comes through the swollen penis, no matter how hard I try. This means I have to wait 10 to 20 minutes in order to properly urinate. What was erotic before ejaculation, is now just pure pain. :-D

After I have gotten all the pee out, it often happens I still have the urge to urinate, even though there's nothing left anymore. At that point I can only lie on the bed curled to a ball, twitching. If I've only edged, at this point I'm horny as hell, but powerless to do anything anymore. Also, it feels almost as if by bladder had been beaten up.

I don't do this very often, since I have to be properly horny before I start (also, half filled bladder and a slight urge to urinate helps) and it's also quite a strain for the body.

But then again, it does feel so divine...